today,i woke up with a not very nice feeling.. i felt uneasy through out till now..
just now afternoon,around lunch time,i made myself busy by watching some old movies,just to get rid of that uneasy feelings..however,i was disturbed by my dad's nagging about jobs.. hmm.. but the weird part,my dad was supposed to be working but he came home in the afternoon? but the way he acted,as if,he wants to see my mum before she's off to work,usually she will be out at 1.30pm but just now,she went out at arnd 12.50pm..but my dad came home at 1.05 pm.. once he was home,he was searching for mom..hmm.. pity him,he have to rush home but mom was not around..

so,my dad just sat and smoke.. that's he does when his thinking of something..but im blogging not about what happened in the afternoon,i'm blogging about,just 15 minutes ago,my dad said he wants to go to my aunt's house,but he ask my lil bro if he wants to come,but my lil bro refuse to..so i assume,he wants somebody to accompany him..for sure it won't be me,we can't communicate that well.. so when he went out,i look out at my kitchen's window,i saw him..smoking and carrying his plastic bag..he was looking at his bike but somehow,his face shows that his thinking of something that really upset him..when i really look at him,i'm sad to see his face that way..i just felt his unhappy..i just feel.. it made me broke down..i felt so horrible for not being nice to him..even though i can't see his wrong at certain time,but,i just couldn't bear to see him this way..lonely,sad..hmm...

i just couldn't express what im feeling here... i'm off..